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God, the Celestial Bellhop

March 30, 2017
prayer meme Matthew 5:44

“Try not to pray against anyone, so that you do not destroy what you are building, and make your prayer loathsome.” – Evagrios the Solitary Recently, a New Testament scholar/professor/preacher friend posted this quote—without explanation—on his Facebook page. While I had never heard of Evagrios, knowing my friend as I did, I guessed correctly that he was one of those early mystics of the Church, who …

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“Time does not bring relief”

March 2, 2017
Lev-in remembrance

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied Who told me time would ease me of my pain! I miss him in the weeping of the rain; I want him at the shrinking of the tide; The old snows melt from every mountain-side, And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane; But last year’s bitter loving must remain Heaped on my heart, and …

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Nantucket, My Happy Place

June 16, 2016
Mom's happy place

Sanctuary: A sacred place, a safe haven. Nantucket. In my new role as widow, I first found joy that lasted more than a moment when I visited Nantucket in 2013. I discovered a serene, tranquil beauty here that caused my spirit to soar and led me to re-evaluate and ultimately re-purpose my life. I came back to this remote island a year later to see …

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Happy Birthday to Me!

March 17, 2016

I have lived to see three-quarters of a century go by, for today is my 75th birthday. Unlike those special days I associate with Lev, this is not a sinkhole. Because my birthday falls during Texas Spring Break—with my children and their families on different school calendars, going in different directions—we don’t have a tradition of gathering every year. In many ways that is a …

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Home Alone at Christmastime

December 1, 2015
Christmas 2010

It’s always the same: a morning arrives in November, and my friend, as though officially inaugurating the Christmas time of year that exhilarates her imagination and fuels the blaze of her heart, announces: “It’s fruitcake weather!” Truman Capote’s “A Christmas Memory” has always stirred my own Christmas memories, for Mama was also a fruitcake maker, mixing the mass of dough by hand in her well-scrubbed …

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Advent: A Season of Hope

November 29, 2015
Advent wreath Ph. 3:13

Key 7: Let go of the past; embrace the future. Throughout November I focused on gratitude. Now I want to turn my attention to hope and anticipation. It’s a natural progression, for the connection between gratitude and hope is strong. Without gratitude for the past and the present, we will have difficulty finding hope for the future. Advent can serve as our springboard. Today is …

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A Day of Remembrance

October 4, 2015

9/11 is one of those dates marked indelibly in memory, one of those dates when we immediately remember where we were and what we were doing when we got the word. Lev and I were drinking coffee and reading the newspaper when our daughter called. “Turn on the TV. A plane has crashed into the World Trade Center.” We immediately called our son in Dallas–a …

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6 Good Reasons to Entertain at Home Alone

September 20, 2015

Women who find themselves suddenly single again—whether widowed or divorced–after years as half a couple are often at a loss on how to entertain. I threw my first big party—a properly decorous event—seven months after Lev died, and I have grown increasingly comfortable entertaining at home alone in the years since then. Here are six reasons to entertain: 1. Reciprocate People are incredibly kind to …

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Throwback Thursday: Elvis Discovered in Texarkana

September 3, 2015

Sixty years ago, Elvis Presley was a 20-year-old rockabilly singer performing in small-town auditoriums throughout the south. He was often featured at the Louisiana Hayride, Shreveport’s answer to the Grand Ole Opry, and Texarkana—75 miles north—was a frequent showplace for Hayride stars. Elvis sang (and gyrated) at the Texarkana, Arkansas, Municipal Auditorium at least twice in 1954 and four times in 1955, as well as in …

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Father’s Day–One of Those Markers

June 21, 2015

Father’s Day is hard to dodge. For weeks in advance we are bombarded with ads for cards and gifts for dad. It’s not as big a day as Mother’s Day–I’ve never understood that–but we will remember our fathers on Father’s Day, whether the memory is good or not. While Father’s Day was not a big occasion in our home–the children went to camp every June–I …

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